.i will always only think of you.

"This is incredible, starving, insatiable..yes, this is love for the first time..."

What we have certainly is incredible, is it not? Not hearing your voice for the greater part of today has taken its toll on me and left me starving for your love and affection.

I know that you'll call me soon...but even after that, this love I have for you is insatiable and can not be abated by a simple phone call...I will only be cured of this longing when I can really be held safely in your arms.

It is coming soon...the time where you and I can intertwine our fingers and our hearts again for a few days. Though the time will be fleeting, the memories...oh, they will stay and carry me through until we meet again.

This love I have for you is steadily growing and ever unchanging in intensity...it cannot be overtaken by such a paltry obstacle as distance.

Tonight, as I lie in my bed to sleep, I will only think of you.
I will only think of the day when I can lay my head sweetly on your shoulder as I slip off into a dreamland.
Tonight, as I lie in my bed, I will only dream of the next time I will see your face.
The tinges of reality will reach through the mist of my dream reverie, as I will be seeing you in five short days.

Tonight, I will only think of you.
Tomorrow, I will only think of you.
And so it shall go on...

Forever.

.seven.

Nothing worth having comes easily, you know?

It seems like it’s been so long since you and I had real eye contact...you know...the kind that leaves you breathless because you know that you’re looking into the eyes of love, love that is mirrored in my own.

I’ve counted up the characters used to write my proclamations of affection each night, the letters I’ve sent you across the states and the minutes spent listening to your voice, but you must know that they do not add up to how much I think you’re worth.

Not even close.

It’s been a struggle...at times, I felt like we had taken two steps forward, only to fall back into the footprints we had already made on the path.

This semblance of a tug-of-war game left me breathless at times, but not the kind of breathless that leaves you gasping for air in the most painful way possible...the kind of breathless that leaves you loving the sweet burn of your lungs.

I still remember the fog that blanketed my car that day when we got lost down that strange highway that seemed to lead to nowhere...but we were going everywhere and anywhere, it seemed...

Nobody said it was easy at the time, but I knew that, for better or for worse (to be cliché), I would be there, holding your heart close to mine.

It was hard, but oh, the suffering was the sweetest I have ever know, really. To be yours is worth the price that I had to pay, which is really not even scratching the surface of your total worth.

Soon, I’ll be coming back to you. My first step on that Virginian ground will be met with the release of my pent-up emotions for you. Those precious words that have resounded across phone lines each day will fall from my lips once more, but I know that I will be able to look into your eyes and show you how much I mean them.

I’m coming back to you, baby...give me a week and I’m coming. Please tell me you’ll be there, waiting for me...

.eight.

Each time I see you or hear you, I get positively giddy with happiness...



And lately, it has steadily increased, because I know I will get to see your face in person very very soon...



Can I just tell you how much joy you have brought into my life? Truly, I feel like I'm deeply embedded in the pages of a highly unlikely romance novel, simply because I had thought relationships like these a mere fantasy, one which I would never see played out in my life.



And I know we're going to have a 'happily ever after', simply because you're involved and you always make me smile...and I hope and pray you will continue to do so the rest of my days.



Knowing that each moment that passes hurtles me closer to you makes me feel a bit dizzy with sheer joy. I couldn't let myself really believe it until I knew that my ticket to see you was secured...and I really am coming. Nothing shall stop me now.



My love for you grows exponentially each day. Instead of plateauing, the love is continually on an upward ascent each time I think of you, hear you, miss you...



Which is all the time, in case you didn't know. :]



Eight days, sweetie...eight twenty four hour periods separate me from you right now...and truly, I will wait out these days with the sweetest smile on my face, because I know that once I'm with you again, I will truly feel happy once more.

.nine.

I have waited for this ever so long...it seemed like an eternity loomed between now and the time when I could be in your arms again.

I was not sure when I would see you next...but now, I am certain.

Nine days is all that separates us right now...and it's verging on eight as we speak. Can you really believe that? You and I will be together again in such a short span of time...truly, it is nothing short of an act of God that has made this possible.

I know that He hears the prayer of the righteous, and He most certainly heard our pleas about the intense difficulty of this distance.

It feels so good to identify an answered prayer...especially one that is matchless in its importance to us.

Nine days, sweetie...216 hours...that's it...that's all we have to wait now.

Truly, being back with you again will be the best feeling in the whole wide world.

I can't wait...really, really can't wait to wrap my arms around you again...talk with you...tell you that I love you...

It's going to be amazing.

Nine days... :]

.a boy and a girl.

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was madly in love with a boy.



And for good reason...because this boy wanted to give her the world and would do anything just to see her smile. Likewise, the girl wanted to drive hours upon hours simply to be able to hold him in her arms again for a moment.

This boy was beautiful, inside and out. Handsome simply isn't good enough for him, and even beautiful is verging on inadequate when it comes to describing the color of his soul and the care in his heart. He loved three things in this world above all else: his Savior, his family and the girl...

And oh, how blessed and fortunate this girl felt to call herself his. The girl knew that this was love, and above that, this was her first real taste of love...nothing had ever felt so right and her heart had never had such a peace about a boy before.

But then she met him...and it seems like the very colors of the world shine brighter now that he's here. The love she has for him pours over into all the areas of her life. Everything seems much more purposeful and the future...oh, it's so very bright and beautiful.

Their love transcends the miles...it surpasses the dissonance that arises from time to time...it surmounts all the non-believers in their relationship.

Right now, it is just Charles and Katie, deeply interwoven together through the unfailing love and devotion that they have poured into such a beautiful, God-given relationship.

.the luckiest.

I am the luckiest...

How blessed I feel at this moment in time...it's unmatchable, really.

I feel lucky that I get to talk to you every night.
I feel lucky that I get to tell you how I feel.
I feel lucky that you call me yours.
I feel lucky that we are so wonderfully matched...

Please hear me when I say that I love you truly.

Without you, really, there would not be this kind of joy that I have been so wonderfully blessed with lately...without you, there doesn't seem to be a reason to really smile as big as I do when I get to see your sweet face.

Goodness, I am so very blessed...really...

So you can send me flowers, buy me funny gifts to make me laugh or take me away to places we've never seen...

But truly, all I need is you...all I want is you...and without you here....well, I shall just be counting down the days until I am truly with you and yours again.

.is it a shame?.

Nobody said it was easy...it's such a shame for us to [be a]part...

Modifying those Coldplay lyrics seems to embody the feelings I have about us right now...

It is a shame that such a tender love should be distanced physically.
It is a shame that this girl cannot blush sweetly at your words of affection.
It is a shame that I cannot kiss you goodnight and wish for sweet dreams for you in person.
Such a shame...such a shame.

But...is it really? Are we a shame? No.

We are...we are...

Beautiful.loving.growing.learning.laughing.seeking.living.
reaching.knowing.inseparable.connected.in tune.in love...

We are all this and more. Instead of focusing on what we cannot be for each other at this moment...think of all we do have.

It is amazing that we are as close as we are emotionally.
It is amazing how present God has been in our relationship from the start.
It is amazing how much we care for each other.
So amazing...so, so amazing.

We are not longing for the past, but rather for what comes next for us. Forever looking forward, forever looking ahead, forever looking up...

No one promised that it would be easy. But you...oh...you make this struggle all the more sweeter...and all the more worthwhile with each passing day.

I am totally, completely and irrevocably in love with you.

.live to let you shine.

If you'll be my star
I'll be your sky
You can hide underneath me
And come out at night
When I turn jet black
You show off your light
I live to let you shine.

I'm not sure how this correlates to us really, but I know this much...I do want to be the one who lets you shine as bright as you can. It would be a crime not to let you do so.

Others have been trying to cloud you out lately, it seems...cloud us out.
No matter what happens, I'll always be behind you, wrapping myself around all that you are and doing my best to keep you shimmering in that sky, my dear.

I keep looking at my wall. I have pasted two dozen plastic stars that glow when I turn out my light each night after listening to your dulcet tones telling me goodnight. The three largest ones make a triangle, but the little ones are equally beautiful in their radiance.

Becoming yours is a shining star in my memory, but all those little moments between are the ones that light up my night sky...the first time you told me you loved me...the first time you held my hand in yours...the first time you told me how much you loved my smile.

I trust you intimately...and I trust that we can stick together through the times people try to sever us by clouding our rosy view of the future. Just like I have stuck those stars you gave me on my wall, I have adhered you to my heart. Nothing will render us inseparable.

Please keep shining for me, even when we're apart. I know that we look up at the same night sky and trace our fingers along the constellations. Compared to the utter vastness of the night sky, the distance doesn't seem as far, does it?

Keep looking up, looking forward, looking toward the day when we are together again...and remember, I will always live to let you shine.

.please please please.

I am restless tonight.

I feel the need to leave, to venture out, to go away from here...

If I was where you were, I wouldn't feel quite so eager to leave...in fact, I wouldn't ever want to leave the place where you are at.

Truly, my heart has been relegated to the east coast, it seems...and while I am truly thrilled to give it to you to keep, I wish to be with you so that I can at least look you in the eyes when I tell you I love you...

Because, really, I do.

No one will ever take your place in my heart, this much is certain. Oh, I have friends, but nothing compares to you. No one would ever surpass the prominent place you have taken in my life, this is certain.

I am restless tonight...very, very restless.

I want to jump in my car and drive and drive and drive until I am with you again. This itch isn't a passing feeling; it is a notion I will have every day until I see you again.

Please, tell me you'll satiate my desire to leave by telling me you are coming...then, I will feel at peace...and patiently wait for your arrival and the moment when I will be back in your arms once more.

Please come back to me, my love...please, please, please.

.without you here.

The two month mark of separation looms on us, darling, but we are no worse for the wear, it seems...we have overcome this distance with such grace and love, more than I ever thought possible.

Me without you is not an ideal situation, granted...but oh, we absolutely adore one another despite these miles...that in itself is quite the accomplishment, is it not?

An easy one for me though...for you are so very loveable. Your every nuance, your very soul....so absolutely beautiful and shining to me.

As I watch you right now, sitting in that somewhat chilly room in Virginia, scratching your head in thought as you write down your feelings for me, my heart swells with love for you...as I watch the cute way you purse your lips as you ponder words, I wish to be there, as usual.

Truly, tonight, I do not want to fall asleep in this slightly uncomfortable dorm bed and wake up the next day to repeat the same set of classes that will be my routine for the next four months.

I want to wake up in the same state as you, the same town, the same house as you...and be able to run downstairs to kiss your cheek good morning with each passing day. I want to curl up with you on a sofa, whether it be here or there, and watch funny movies together, pausing now and then to gaze lovingly into each other's eyes...because, truly, when I'm with you next, that will be one of my top priorities...showing you how much I do love you...

It's the little things, darling...to hold your hand, to brush your cheek with my fingertips, to slip a little note in one of your textbooks for you to find during class...gosh, how I want to be that girl for you.

You are my everything...absolutely everything. While it hurts to be restrained from being with you physically at this moment in time, it makes the moments we will share so much sweeter. Absence makes the heart grow fonder and you, oh, you are solidifying that saying into a permanent reality for me.

So, truly, we have stretched our hands out across these miles so beautifully and held on tight over these two months...may our hands be rejoined together in the flesh sooner rather than later.

.i do love nothing so well as you.

The distance seemed greater today...

Not because you and I weren't as close...no...these days find us growing more and more inseparable with each passing moment.

No, I just really felt those miles today, it seems...I wanted you here so badly to hold my hand and stroke my hair, and likewise, I wanted to be the one who whispers those three beautiful words into your ear.

Shakespeare put it best, it seems...

"I do love nothing in the world so well as you."

Because, really, there is nothing in this world that holds such an endearing charm for me as your smile...nothing that makes me want to bridge the physical distance between us so often...nothing that makes these eyes light up at the sound of your voice as well as you.

My dear, I do love nothing in the world so well as you...so thoroughly as you...so ardently as you. This much is for certain and quite unconditional it seems...no distance will ever sever me from your heart, I am positive.

If there's one thing I wish for you to know tonight, know that...

It'll be you and I, together for all time...as long as you'll have me...and gosh, I pray you shall.

I love you, love you, love you!

.longing.

I am in love with the sweetest boy in the world...

He's kind, gentle, caring...and he loves me...that is amazing to me!

Hearing his voice every night has become the one thing that I cannot live without...and he is the one person that I cannot be without, for he is a part of me...an ever increasing part, it seems.

The days when I can hear his sweet voice telling me good morning begin so much brighter...the nights that he tells me he loves me before I sleep are so much sweeter...

Without him? No...there shall never be another day when I am not his anymore...we have promised that.

I love him more and more each day...and each day that I awake, the longing to see him grows ever greater...

I long to see his beautiful smile. I long to wrap my arms around him and stand together quietly for a long time and steal a perfect moment together. I long to speak to him about my love for him...and hear that he feels the same for me.

I long to see him.

But as for now, I know my love for him grows stronger and stronger with each passing day...and soon, the longing will be over...

.beautiful.

Your adorable smile...

*sigh*

I could write for days about how much joy seeing that grin spread across your handsome face brings me.

And that's just one thing out of countless others that make me squirm a little with happiness each time I think about them.

Have I told you how absolutely beautiful I think you are, inside and out?

I know that girls are usually the ones referred to as beautiful, but there is no other word that can even come close to describing your soul, your heart and you in general.

So you, my dear, are absolutely beautiful...beautiful in your care for others, your love for the Lord and your absolute love for me.

Seeing your smile...oh...without it, my days don't seem quite as bright. You make me so very happy...and seeing your happiness naturally evokes my own.

So please, darling...keep smiling for me...you are my everything, my beautiful one.

.never change for us at all.

It was so very cold today...

Driving home left me time to think...and as usual, my thoughts wandered to you...to us.

Today was the day that should have been ours together...but fate intervened and told us to wait a little while longer.

I can bear that, but I cannot deny the difficulty of today, knowing that I could have been driving in exactly the opposite direction to fetch you from the airport.

I instead satisfied myself with your CD, knowing that those ten songs you chose would make my heart sing almost as well as your voice and your presence does.

Hearing the words "you are so beautiful to me" still makes my heart clench up in my chest with pure joy...knowing that you really do think that of me brings an undeniably blissful smile to my face.

Knowing that you will always be "the greatest fan" of my life also seemed very apparently wonderful today to me...and you must know that I will do the same for you...for I am already your number one fan.

And, oh, the final song...

It reassured me that, no matter the distance, no matter if we're separated right now, one thing will always be constant...us.

We don't know when we'll be able to see each other again, and we don't know how...but our love will never change for us at all. I know this to be true, my love...I know it.

.mewithoutYou.

Me without you...

A difficult predicament, it seems. Each day that passes brings a new wave of emotion that makes me remember how absolutely apparent your absence is.

Your adorable smile makes my day so much brighter. I long to sit next to you and hold your hand in mine. I want to brush your cheek with my fingertips. I want to whisper something very special in your ear...

I love you.

No one can really understand this ache, this longing, this missing that I have for you...to keep us apart is verging on criminal in my mind, because this heart is so plaintive without you here.

No one can bring that spark into my eyes like you do. No one can hold me like you can. No one can love me like you do. No one else.

Please, please, please come to me soon, my love. I would surely be sent into transports of joy at the mere sight of you.

Me without you...

An equation that will never add up quite right.

We'll rectify that soon.

Soon.

.forever means...forever.

When I think about you, my very soul cries out to be near to you.

Being away from you has taken its toll...to be so hopelessly in love with someone so far away can be taxing, but you, my darling, are so worth every bit of frustration or sadness.

When I hear your voice, I trip over my own words of affection...I cannot accurately put into words exactly how much I care for you....words do not seem wise at times, for I do not trust my own feeble attempts at capturing the heart in words to do you justice.

These pangs running through my chest are not a pain that I have felt before...the deep longing I have to be nestled safely in the crook of your arm evokes this kind of wrenching ache in my chest. You are the only cure...without your caress and your smile, I am sentenced to endure this sweet suffering.

I say sweet because it is a cross I will gladly bear...one I am privileged and blessed to bear. I would wait for years to grasp another hour and a half with you. I would suffer beyond the realms of pain I have ever known to hold your hand for an instant. All of this may seem like empty poetic promises, but this is the most introspective view of my heart I can offer through words.

To truly know the depth of my devotion and love for you is impossible...it spans these miles separating us and all these hurdles that are strewn across our path right now.

Our blessed heavenly Father tells us He will "never leave or forsake" us. Though I pale in comparison with the devotion of a perfect King, I promise you this:

I will never, never leave your side, my love...and I will never take what we have lightly. It is much beyond what I have ever thought possible to attain, and you...oh...you are my dreams coming true.

You are in my heart always...and will be...until the end of time.

.he is...

There's no one more special to me than my baby.

When I'm feeling sad about the distance, he picks me up and makes me smile again.

Truly, tonight, he had me laughing and smiling again within the course of an hour...when before, I was despondent and down in the dumps.

Without him, I am incomplete...not in the cheesy way, but in the honest way...he is a part of me now and I never want to lose him.

He is absolutely breathtaking when he smiles, and it is contagious, because I start smiling like a fool after he does.

His laugh is adorable, and no other voice holds so much meaning for me.

His heart...indescribable, because such beauty can't be confined by words.

And he is mine...dare I even believe it to be true that someone like him would love me so?

You tell me...after all, you are him...and I love you very, very much.

.special one.

Do you know how incredibly special you are to me?

Without you, I can't seem to be able to really smile the way I do when I talk to you.

I'm telling you, my days are spent waiting to escape into a phone so I can talk with you for awhile about our days, our thoughts, our hardships.

Telling you how much you mean to me is a daunting task, if not impossible...simply because I cannot find the words to articulate such a stunningly beautiful feeling.

This feeling will never be equaled. It will never be matched. You and I, we are meant to be, and without you, I am at a loss.

So, my darling, think of me tomorrow as you fly through your busy day. When you feel frustrated or stressed, know that I am 750 miles away, loving you and thinking about you...and just remember, you are so special to me...and you mean the world to me.

I love you so very much...and I'll never stop. :]

.home sweet home?.

So, I'm all settled in...everything's unpacked and I'm ready for a new semester...new courses...new ideas. Everything's as it should be...

But one pretty important part is missing...and that, of course, is you.

You're currently holding my heart hostage and a huge part of me is sitting in that room with the three happy fish swimming around in their tank and the loud fan that you fixed.

Yep, without you here, I won't ever feel totally complete. I've got everything necessary for success in the classroom, but as for successes of the heart...well...you're a necessity.

Just listening to you talking about your college friends and the fun you'll be having this semester makes me ache to be there with you. Truly, I want to be the girl who walks with you to your classes and the girl who curls up with you on the sofa in the evening to watch the Emperor's New Groove.

I know that, in due time, we shall be together for quite a long while, but part of me is impatient, wishing for me to be near you right now and always.

So, know that I miss you so very much and I wish I was there...more than ever, it seems. I'm home again, but home sweet home doesn't seem like a reality until you're here with me for all time.

:]

.so much.

So much...

So much has happened over the course of two short months...sixty days...that's all it took for such a beautiful and unpredictable relationship to really blossom and flourish.

So much has been said between us...from the randomly hilarious comments to the deeply introspective talks where we pour our souls out...and each moment is one I cherish.

So much has been shared, from the crazy way we both have to kick off our socks before really getting to sleep to the terrible difficulties we have when it comes to directions...

I've never felt so much certainty and peace when it comes to thinking about someone else...but you bring out the best in me, letting me shine with happiness and joy when I think about us.

I've never had so much care in my heart for another...but you inspire me to care for you from the deepest realms of my heart...my entire heart is dedicated to loving you, it seems!

I've never loved someone so much...but it seems that we have something that people oftentimes search their entire lives for...but God has been good enough to us to lay it right in front of us.

It's seems that I've found my better half...and I thank God for that so much.

So much is yet to come for us...we have many plans and endeavors that we wish to undertake.

As the distance gets us down from time to time, just remember that we have so much going for us....

And trust me, the one thing that will never change is that I love you...

So much.

.sunshine.

This girl missed you today so much, baby...

Getting your package in the mail today and reading your letter filled with beautiful words to me was wonderful...but my heart yearned to be near you again.

It's been over a month and, while I'm not technically lonely, I miss you more than I knew I could ever miss someone.

I sit here tonight, contemplating whether or not you and I will be reunited in a week, and the mere thought brings a smile to my face.

One week...such a short time...and if I knew for certain you were coming, I would not be able to contain my happiness.

Even as it is, I feel this palpable bliss rubbing off on other people. I smile more, laugh more and care more...all because of you.

To be slightly cheesy and quote the silly little song my dad used to sing me when I was a little girl...

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are gray.
You'll never know, dear
How much I love you

So please don't take my sunshine away.

.i will never leave you.

Never, ever, EVER think I'm going to throw my hands up in frustration, give up or leave you.

You...you are too amazing for words, really. I know nothing that I say will do you justice because your heart is so absolutely beautiful that it overwhelms me at times.

You control yourself when your anger would not be unwarranted...you overcome these tests and trials with more grace than anyone I have ever seen...and you still love me through it all.

Please, please, please never think that this mess in your life will keep me from you. I would be by your side in an instant right now if I could, holding your hand through this struggle...I'm begging you to believe this one because it is so true.

You tell me not to worry about you and not to be sad on your account...might as well tell me to stop breathing. You are a part of me. When you hurt, I hurt. When you are being attacked, I am too.

You and I are inseparable, remember? We are so tightly interwoven in all the aspects of our lives that no one can pull us apart...nothing...no one...no distance, nothing.

You quiet my restless heart when you speak to me. Your words of love and care make me feel like you are there with me, stroking my hair as I lay my head on your shoulder. Even when the sadness overwhelms me, you love me through it all the same...and I feel your heart reaching out to me at this exact moment in time.

Please...don't ever say that I don't deserve this...because I love every part of you...all of it.

And that's a promise I intend to keep for the rest of my life.

.lilies.

When I awoke today, my entire room smelled like lilies and, of course, I thought about you.

To me, you are more beautiful than the entire bouquet of flowers...you mean so much to me.

I hate to be cliched, but our love is blossoming more and more each day just like a beautiful, God-designed lily.

Nothing you could tell me would ever make our love wilt and die...I know the flowers will eventually fade and the blooms will drop, but we shall keep growing, my love.

Each gorgeous part of you is something I feel truly blessed to call my own. Your life is so fruitful; you are continually amazing me with your displays of strength in difficult situations and unfailing care toward others.

You make me feel that spark of life again...you make me excited to do all those wonderful and beautiful things we've talked about. You inspire me to ardently seek out what God has in store for me...or should I say...us.

You are absolutely wonderful, my love. My love. Those words are so beautiful...for you are mine...and I do love you...unconditionally.

.always on my mind.

My love for you is so strong, my darling...nothing can compare to how I feel for you.

You are the first thought on my mind when I awake and the last thing that crosses my mind before I finally slip off into sleep...and I wouldn't have it any other way.

A day without talking to you seems empty and lifeless...but when I hear your voice again, awakening my emotions and my love, I cannot stifle just how happy I feel.

I've told you my cheeks hurt from smiling so much...and it's true. I guess this is what love feels like...

And I wouldn't have it any other way because, of course, you mean everything to me.

When I saw my beautiful lilies today, a thousand thoughts rushed through my head, and each and every one of them were filled with love for you...you know me so well.

Sending me flowers all across the miles is wonderful, but something else is coming my way soon across the miles...and as lovely as those flowers were, I think this is a lot better.

It's you, of course...you're coming to see me and I can't wait. Really...I can't. You're my everything and nine days can't pass by soon enough...but I will wait patiently.

Until I'm back in your arms again, I'll be counting down the days....

.inseparable.

I'm doing everything for you...I simply adore you, so I plan on spending the rest of my life with you.

I wanna be the one who makes you smile for all time, know that...I love seeing that adorable grin spread across your face.

Do you know what else I love about you?

Well, besides the obvious answer of 'everything'...

I love the fact that you'll give me your cucumbers...I love that you care just as much about animals as I do...and I love that you call me your baby every night.

I get through my days fairly easily, but you make it so much more worthwhile it seems...I look forward to hearing your beautiful voice each night because I know you're the only one who really sees me for me...and still likes me.

Everything about you is crazily amazing...and I wouldn't have it any other way. The distance thing? People might as well save their breath if they're going to try to talk me out of being with you...because you and I are inseparable.

It's true.

So here's to 23409823094823409823 more beautiful moments with you...may I be this completely happy for the rest of my days.

.may we?.

I have never been happier to have slipped up on my words...because tonight, we broke the rules and told each other how we felt for the very first time.



We both know that beating around the bush isn't an elusive idea...it's more like a talent we mastered long ago.



But sometimes, I like giving it a rest...and pouring out my entire heart to you.



That's right...all of it...simply because it all belongs to you anyway.



Do you know how thoroughly you have captured this girl's heart? Truly, Missouri and New Jersey are so many miles apart, but my heart feels like it's lying right next to yours right now.



Nothing you could do would make me change my mind about how much I care for you. Everything about you is beautiful...your love for others, for God and for me.



And so much more, my darling...you are everything to me. Everything I've wanted, needed or hoped for...and so much more it seems. Each day, I am finding out more and more things about you that I love.



May we have an infinite amount of time to explore the hearts of each other to their fullest extent. May we always be able to turn to each other and let those three little words drop from our lips with the utmost sincerity. May I always be able to lie in your arms and kiss your lips.

May we always seek ardently after Him and devote our lives to His glory.



May we always be together.

.you are more important than sleep anyways.

Truly, your voice is quite possibly the best thing to wake up to.

Tonight, when I heard you, pulling me out of my sleep, I was thrilled to hear your voice again. Nothing could keep me away from listening to you tonight.

My day really won't seem complete if you haven't told me goodnight...it seems like a wasted day if I haven't heard your adorable Jersey accent pouring through the phone lines.

Sure, I miss you more and more with each word, but it's a price I'm willing to pay...just hearing you makes my heart flutter and makes me smile bigger than I ever have before.

My mother teases me for being so lovestruck by you, but I don't mind...for who better to be so head over heels for? You are everything I've ever wanted, and I'll never tire of telling you just how absolutely amazing I think you are.

Because, really, you are amazing.

Every part of you sings of your love for our Heavenly Father, and I wouldn't have it any other way, my darling...everything you are is a constant testament to your love for Him.

I feel blessed to be able to call you my own. May I always call you mine...I know I would be the luckiest girl if I could for all time.

.my heart is yours.

Each time I hear your voice, my heart feels full to the point of bursting with such happiness.

Never before have I been attached to someone who inspires such a wonderful reaction in my heart.

Truly, you make me smile from the deepest parts of me...I feel your warmth and care down to my very toes when you call me your darling.

I want to always be your darling because you are, quite simply put, the one for me...there absolutely cannot be someone else out there that is so perfectly suited to all my little quirks and funny habits.

I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not when I talk to you...I know you'll love everything I say, despite my shortcomings from time to time. You laugh when I tell you pointless stories, and gosh, that is so wonderful because I sure do tell them a lot!

Basically, what I'm trying to say is...well...I am in love with all the little things you do for me. It's so much more than just loving that, but I think you know where I'm going with it.

I miss you more and more each day, but thirteen days...well...thirteen isn't an unlucky number to me, especially since you're involved now.

I never want to lose you...please, stay by my side always, my darling.

.you're in my care always.

How I longed to be there with you tonight...

I do always want to take care of you too...especially when you are not feeling well, my darling.

I would have loved to stroke your cheek gently as you laid your head next to mine. I would have given anything to be able to make it all better with a kiss and tell you how much I love...

But even if I cannot be there, do know that you are always on my mind. Your well-being is so very important to this girl, and I cannot deny that I can only be happy when you are too.

You're the only one who knows about my shower concerts...the only one who knows how important it is to liberate one's feet from the constricting confines of socks before bed...the only one who would be able to make me rest easy at night by saying goodnight to me.

This missing of you grows steadily every day, increasing exponentially, it seems...but this heart can bear it, for it is so consumed with all you are. Your beauty radiates in absolutely every corner of your life, and I feel blessed to be a part of it.

Each night before I slip off into sleep, I thank God for you. Each morning, when I wake up, I thank God for you.

I hope and pray that I will do the same for the rest of my life...God willing, I plan on it.

.never without you.

I love the way you call me baby...you take me as I am.

I have never felt so loved in all of my life by someone as extraordinary as you. Each time your name flashes across the screen of my cell phone, the butterflies of euphoria come out to dance in my stomach.

Every time you call me yours, my heart gives another little twinge of joy...it's just another sign that I am completely struck by you.

I always love what we speak of...from the most ridiculous scenarios to future endeavors we wish to undergo to the undying care we have for each other...I savor each moment.

You must know how deeply this care for you runs...it is rooted in my very being. Tearing you away from me would be comparable to tearing out my very heart, for it is not mine any longer.

I know you always desire to be the one for me that picks me up when I fall, the one who strokes my forehead when I am sick and the one who holds my hand when I am unsure.

But do you know how truly I wish to be the same for you? I do always want to smooth the creases of worry out of your forehead. I long to nestle in the crook of your arms late at night when you feel lonesome. I wish to be the one for you who you can always turn to, your true confidante.

My love for every part of your heart has blossomed into a garden flourishing with life...the likes of which I have never seen. This overwhelming feeling is the constant background music to my days lately, and you, of course, are always on my mind.

I find it hard to express such an undescribable feeling...but then again, do I have to worry?

I think you feel the same way, my dear.

.list.

Things I love about you:

• Your smile
• Your laugh
• Your voice
• Your love for cherries
• Kim Jong Il
• Your uncanny ability to know just what presents will make me smile (ahem...Chia Pet)
• Your love for others
• Your love for God
• Two words: Wally Wallafred
• Coffee (heehee)
• Your impeccable taste in movies
• Your appreciation for the simple pleasures in life
• Macaroni & cheese!
• Sha nay nay
• Sweet mercy!
• Addison
• Your pretty eyes
• Steak & ketchup!
• No music while you're sleeping
• The fact that you always tell me that I'm beautiful
• Socks. Off.
• Holding hands
• Phone conversations that no one else can compare to
• Your adorable Joisey accent :]
• Your love for your family

And that, my dear, is just scratching the surface.

There is one more general, all-encompassing addition to this list of things that I love, love, love...

But 17 days isn't seeming too terribly long, now is it?

Just know that it's true...such a true feeling has never been felt in my heart.

I, uh, banana you....with all my heart.

.2008.

Ringing in the New Year last night was fun...but I couldn't help but miss your presence.

I kept thinking of how much you would love to meet all my friends, and how thrilled I would be to show you off because you're just that special to me.

Of course, even though you were a thousand miles away, when 2007 slipped away into 2008, you were the only thing on my mind.

I knew that with the start of a new year, therein lies the promise of new endeavors, new resolutions and new journeys.

But there is one small thing about 2007 that I wouldn't let go of for the world...well...it's not exactly small.

You're the one thing that I would not change. I don't want it to change. I want to grow and change with you...

And I know you'll stick with me through it all.

Your care, your trust and your committment...only three things about you that I love...there are many, many more.

All I know is that 2008 holds a lot of promise...but you are the most promising aspect of it all.