.may we?.

I have never been happier to have slipped up on my words...because tonight, we broke the rules and told each other how we felt for the very first time.



We both know that beating around the bush isn't an elusive idea...it's more like a talent we mastered long ago.



But sometimes, I like giving it a rest...and pouring out my entire heart to you.



That's right...all of it...simply because it all belongs to you anyway.



Do you know how thoroughly you have captured this girl's heart? Truly, Missouri and New Jersey are so many miles apart, but my heart feels like it's lying right next to yours right now.



Nothing you could do would make me change my mind about how much I care for you. Everything about you is beautiful...your love for others, for God and for me.



And so much more, my darling...you are everything to me. Everything I've wanted, needed or hoped for...and so much more it seems. Each day, I am finding out more and more things about you that I love.



May we have an infinite amount of time to explore the hearts of each other to their fullest extent. May we always be able to turn to each other and let those three little words drop from our lips with the utmost sincerity. May I always be able to lie in your arms and kiss your lips.

May we always seek ardently after Him and devote our lives to His glory.



May we always be together.

.you are more important than sleep anyways.

Truly, your voice is quite possibly the best thing to wake up to.

Tonight, when I heard you, pulling me out of my sleep, I was thrilled to hear your voice again. Nothing could keep me away from listening to you tonight.

My day really won't seem complete if you haven't told me goodnight...it seems like a wasted day if I haven't heard your adorable Jersey accent pouring through the phone lines.

Sure, I miss you more and more with each word, but it's a price I'm willing to pay...just hearing you makes my heart flutter and makes me smile bigger than I ever have before.

My mother teases me for being so lovestruck by you, but I don't mind...for who better to be so head over heels for? You are everything I've ever wanted, and I'll never tire of telling you just how absolutely amazing I think you are.

Because, really, you are amazing.

Every part of you sings of your love for our Heavenly Father, and I wouldn't have it any other way, my darling...everything you are is a constant testament to your love for Him.

I feel blessed to be able to call you my own. May I always call you mine...I know I would be the luckiest girl if I could for all time.

.my heart is yours.

Each time I hear your voice, my heart feels full to the point of bursting with such happiness.

Never before have I been attached to someone who inspires such a wonderful reaction in my heart.

Truly, you make me smile from the deepest parts of me...I feel your warmth and care down to my very toes when you call me your darling.

I want to always be your darling because you are, quite simply put, the one for me...there absolutely cannot be someone else out there that is so perfectly suited to all my little quirks and funny habits.

I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not when I talk to you...I know you'll love everything I say, despite my shortcomings from time to time. You laugh when I tell you pointless stories, and gosh, that is so wonderful because I sure do tell them a lot!

Basically, what I'm trying to say is...well...I am in love with all the little things you do for me. It's so much more than just loving that, but I think you know where I'm going with it.

I miss you more and more each day, but thirteen days...well...thirteen isn't an unlucky number to me, especially since you're involved now.

I never want to lose you...please, stay by my side always, my darling.

.you're in my care always.

How I longed to be there with you tonight...

I do always want to take care of you too...especially when you are not feeling well, my darling.

I would have loved to stroke your cheek gently as you laid your head next to mine. I would have given anything to be able to make it all better with a kiss and tell you how much I love...

But even if I cannot be there, do know that you are always on my mind. Your well-being is so very important to this girl, and I cannot deny that I can only be happy when you are too.

You're the only one who knows about my shower concerts...the only one who knows how important it is to liberate one's feet from the constricting confines of socks before bed...the only one who would be able to make me rest easy at night by saying goodnight to me.

This missing of you grows steadily every day, increasing exponentially, it seems...but this heart can bear it, for it is so consumed with all you are. Your beauty radiates in absolutely every corner of your life, and I feel blessed to be a part of it.

Each night before I slip off into sleep, I thank God for you. Each morning, when I wake up, I thank God for you.

I hope and pray that I will do the same for the rest of my life...God willing, I plan on it.

.never without you.

I love the way you call me baby...you take me as I am.

I have never felt so loved in all of my life by someone as extraordinary as you. Each time your name flashes across the screen of my cell phone, the butterflies of euphoria come out to dance in my stomach.

Every time you call me yours, my heart gives another little twinge of joy...it's just another sign that I am completely struck by you.

I always love what we speak of...from the most ridiculous scenarios to future endeavors we wish to undergo to the undying care we have for each other...I savor each moment.

You must know how deeply this care for you runs...it is rooted in my very being. Tearing you away from me would be comparable to tearing out my very heart, for it is not mine any longer.

I know you always desire to be the one for me that picks me up when I fall, the one who strokes my forehead when I am sick and the one who holds my hand when I am unsure.

But do you know how truly I wish to be the same for you? I do always want to smooth the creases of worry out of your forehead. I long to nestle in the crook of your arms late at night when you feel lonesome. I wish to be the one for you who you can always turn to, your true confidante.

My love for every part of your heart has blossomed into a garden flourishing with life...the likes of which I have never seen. This overwhelming feeling is the constant background music to my days lately, and you, of course, are always on my mind.

I find it hard to express such an undescribable feeling...but then again, do I have to worry?

I think you feel the same way, my dear.

.list.

Things I love about you:

• Your smile
• Your laugh
• Your voice
• Your love for cherries
• Kim Jong Il
• Your uncanny ability to know just what presents will make me smile (ahem...Chia Pet)
• Your love for others
• Your love for God
• Two words: Wally Wallafred
• Coffee (heehee)
• Your impeccable taste in movies
• Your appreciation for the simple pleasures in life
• Macaroni & cheese!
• Sha nay nay
• Sweet mercy!
• Addison
• Your pretty eyes
• Steak & ketchup!
• No music while you're sleeping
• The fact that you always tell me that I'm beautiful
• Socks. Off.
• Holding hands
• Phone conversations that no one else can compare to
• Your adorable Joisey accent :]
• Your love for your family

And that, my dear, is just scratching the surface.

There is one more general, all-encompassing addition to this list of things that I love, love, love...

But 17 days isn't seeming too terribly long, now is it?

Just know that it's true...such a true feeling has never been felt in my heart.

I, uh, banana you....with all my heart.

.2008.

Ringing in the New Year last night was fun...but I couldn't help but miss your presence.

I kept thinking of how much you would love to meet all my friends, and how thrilled I would be to show you off because you're just that special to me.

Of course, even though you were a thousand miles away, when 2007 slipped away into 2008, you were the only thing on my mind.

I knew that with the start of a new year, therein lies the promise of new endeavors, new resolutions and new journeys.

But there is one small thing about 2007 that I wouldn't let go of for the world...well...it's not exactly small.

You're the one thing that I would not change. I don't want it to change. I want to grow and change with you...

And I know you'll stick with me through it all.

Your care, your trust and your committment...only three things about you that I love...there are many, many more.

All I know is that 2008 holds a lot of promise...but you are the most promising aspect of it all.